If you’re going to fall in love

If you’re going to fall in love –
Don’t fall for the decorated “Me.”
That I prepare every morning
To face the world, to survive another day.
A fake smile, a white shirt, jeans and cologne.
Don’t fall in love with that false persona
That I carry to impress, to climb
The steps of achievement they’ve defined for me.
I’m not exactly the spring you’ve waited for.
I can be the deadly summer.
If you’re going to fall in love –
Fall for my weaknesses.
My jealousy, my impatience, my indecision.
My moods, my resistance, my numbness.
My inner child that seeks attention.
who can be restless – giving you a hard time.
Love me, for them if you can.
I’m not exactly the spring you’ve waited for.
I can be the dry Winter.
Fall in love with the wall I create.
From a self-perceived maturity and melancholy.
Fall in love with my scars, my wounds, the blood stains.
All the under-achievements, all the complexities.
That make me – imperfect. That make me – “me.”
Love me, for them if you can.
If you’re going to fall for me,
Fall in love with every fragment of me.
Decent, wicked, ugly, glorious – I’m a little bit of all.
Fall in love with my shortcomings, my sleepless nights,
My journey to madness – my write ups.
If you can- fall in love with the naked me.
Real, unpretentious, raw.
Or my dear, don’t love me at all.
Copyright: ©Suman Bhattacharya, 2014
Suman Bhattacharya
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